Momma,I miss you

Wow , I look at my last post. Its been a year.
 I can hardly believe it. Yet I do.  This has been such a crazy year, Praise God, I was able to spend time with her.  It was a special time.  I prayed much with her and was pettioning God to reach thru the memory loss and reach her soul to be ready to meet him. Would pray with her and read to her every day.  One day, just days before she passed away.  She told me how she had a dream.  She had told me just before that, she prayed too.  In the dream , she saw this beautiful house. Bigger and more beautiful than anything she had ever seen.  A man stood there and told her that was her house, she could go in.( my daughter and I started getting chills going up and down our arms. She told me she was scared.  I said " oh momma, in John 14:2, it tells how God is preparing a mansion for us. This is a good thing" She died shortly after that, I do believe I will see my mom again someday.

I believe God allowed mom to have a moment of clarity to tell me that, so I would know she had made her peace with my precious Saviour.

I am so thankful for my daughter, She was my help in that trying time. Many a time after seeing mom, we would just drive and drive and cry. she knew what I needed.Many time we would just drive down to the river and watch the water peacefully flow by.

I am so thankful that my Lord was there to meet my moms needs and also her loved ones.

Just writing these thoughts have been healing for me too.  I look thru my house and see her gifts she has given me thru the years.  she always put thought into them.  My last gift was a package of life savers she gave me to munch on. apx 5 years ago.  I was sitting on the bench with her,  Knowing things were going to change soon.  She would not be able to live alone anymore and she would not let us help her.  She did not understand.  As I finally said my good byes, she handed me the package of what was left.  I stuck them in my purse and flew home.  Not long after that she ended up, confused and in a memory carre faculity.  I could never eat those last 2 mints while she was living,  It was her last cogative gift she gave me. Its been a year and better since she died.  I still have them on my dresser, reminding me how much she loved and cared for me.

Mom, I miss you