Lessons learned at the beach

This is my favorite time of the year.  I have always loved fall.  The colors of trees changing.  Crops in the fields are being harvested.   The smell in the air is so fresh.  We love going for rides in the evening, just to see the harvest of God's creation.

I love being able to sit on my deck and do my studying and writing.  Right now, I have my favortie cup of tea. I am listening to my favorite music on my phone.  Reminding me of how much God has done for me.  Hearing in the distance of people working in their yards. A breeze blowing just enough, I had to run in and get a sweater.

As then, I think of what a big wonderful friend I have,  Jesus Christ.  He is my healer, provider.  This summer, He has shown me in so many ways, how he cares for me. I was walking the beach, while visiting friends and family.  A mighty big wave grabbed my cane, I kept trying to reach it when the wave would bring it back in.  I would almost have it and a wave would grabbed it over and over.  Finally, God spoke to my heart in a very real way,  " Don't ya get it Paula? You don't need that."  I stopped short, looked up and said" Your right Lord, I don't need it."  since that day I walk without a cane up and down hills and never fall.

In this lesson, God showed me some real truths. In 1995, God came down and healed me in a very real way. I hardly used that cane expect if I walked without John. I didn't think anything about it.  It had been a part of my life.  Never needing the cane or scooter unless, it was long distance and very hot.   God had healed me in so many other ways, I just did what I always did.

I truly believe my heavenly father was telling me" You been taking baby steps.  Now let me  do what I want to do"  by grabbing the cane, I had to depend on God and the healing he had given me so very long ago.  I had to finish walking that beach, climb up the slippery sandy dunes.

I heard not too long ago this: " People want to let the Lord be the driver, but they want to hold on to the steering wheel."

Well I have let go of the steering wheel and I am still standing, walking and carrying something at the same time.

After the Lord showed me that lesson on the beach.  After I agreed I didn't need that old cane, It stood straight up and danced along the waves, like it was laughing at me.  My mother in law and I stood there and just hysterically laughed, holding our sides and the sight of that cane.

God is so good.

God is so special to me

Love sitting on my deck as the evening is starting to close down.  Been thinking of how special God has been to me.  Sitting here, savoring a warm cup of coffee and listening to a favorite song of mine.  " Amazing Grace, my chains are gone, I have been sit free."  He did that for me when I was 16 years old. I can live with no regrets because I have a Redeemer who guides my path every day.

As many of you  know I was diagnosed with MS over 20 years ago. Wow ,Where has time gone? There was a day, when God came down and healed me. I knew that my faithful God had given me a promise I could hang on to.  Since that day, every day has been a major blessing.  I went from a young women, confined to a wheelchair and many times bed fast. I walk all over, hold a job and do all the things at one time was too weak to do.

This last summer , the Lord had another lesson for me to learn.  My mother in law and I was walking the Oregon beach.  I was rejoicing because for so many years I had stopped walking the beach and would have never done it without John . But here we were, I had my cane just in case.  In case of what, I don't know.  Well, as I boldly walked through the water, a big wave came and grabbed my cane and took it.  I tried in vain to grab it as the water would bring it back toward me, Always just out of my reach as I tried to grab it. finally a voice spoke to my heart, as real as anything.  "Don't ya get it Paula? You don't need that." I stopped what I was doing and said" Your right God, I don't "

The funny part, that cane stood straight up and stayed like that.  It was so funny.  I thought as God lovingly reminded me, that he was all I needed. Later to further prove his love to me.  We went camping. It rained and rained.  Once again, as I walked alone, holding an umbrella and not loosing my balance. My heart was lifted up to my healer and God that loved me so much. That while I was yet sinner, He died for ME!